2019
A complete Mental Breakdown
The day I started seeing therapistI never thought. I would be in this situation.
Some Voice in my mind tried to kill myself.
I was so desperate to be heard.
My mind was shouting so loud but my voice was on mute.
Back then, i had night terrors, depression, anxiety, insomnia, Panic attacks, Sucidial intention I was so lost.
When the first panic attack hit me down in 2018 I knew that something was wrong with my mental health. I dealt with extremely uncomfortable and terrifying sensations especially at night.
I began abusing alcohol as coping mechanisms.
I was so scared to tell people what is burning in my head.
With fear that I was not stable, I started shifting every time from one city to another. I couldn’t stay at one place for a long time.
I left with a broken heart & cried alot. I needed someone to listen but I was not allowed to talk.
I still remember i was called “Weak” told ‘ it’s all in my head ” & my generation was shameless
Some people made fun of me, Some took advantage of it. I still remember their words.
Last year I started a proper treatment for that & started talking to a therapist.
It tooks me 6 sessions & a hell lot of medication.
In 2020 I met one guy who introduced me to One ngo. They helped me alot in getting through this I still experience anxiety and insomnia but now they are less frequent and less debilitating
So i promised to make sure no one goes through the same
The premise was simple:
Now that I finally feel like I’m getting a handle on it, I see how far our society has to go in addressing this issue.
It doesn’t take too much to listen, it doesn’t even need a degree.
You just had to be patient and not Judge.
As a volunteer i took 2 session till now & after today’s Session i thought to write this as reminder to all of you want to make a difference in the world? let your pain drive you and just start.
If i could do out with a broken heart, mental illness & a job.
So can you
Help people they need you.
